I can feel that satan is attacking me.
He's striking my mind, my heart.
And telling me that i CANNOT do much.

Today, i was talking to jas about the F1 race and the job opportunity in e M.M HOTEL offered to LRM students. Its really a rare opportunity eh. i signed up for the F1 race, and i didnt went for the interview? and my classmate asked me why?
tsk tsk!

i wanted to join!, wanted so much to expose myself to such thingy and wanted so much to gain such experience. But somehow, sth thats really stopping me from doing so. First reason is, the event day might fall on weekends? which i dont really wish to put myself in such situation and i think the second reason is? cos its grp interview?

i hate being interviewed.. It may seems V funny..i know next time when i work in the industry...confirm chop...i will sure GO thru INTERVIEW de..BUT what makes me so unwilling to go is..I FEEL that, in such grp interview..it just stress me..

Many pple are trying so hard to sell themselves, saying all those GOOD stuff abt themselves like what they can do for the company..etc etc.. and the words they used is just simply AMAZING and V chim chim.

im just sucks at expression myself. like i told jas today, i think in such grp interview setting..i will sure die..such intense competition..i think i wont get the job lor..PPLE REALLY SELL THEMSELVE like some 'prestige goods'..im like some 'inferior goods'. WOW, i sound so negative? nah. i know myself well hur. In my private life...i just hope to fade off in the picture..i dont wanan stand OUT from the rest. i just wanan be real, i dont wanan be someone Im not, i dont even wish to brag about things that i dont even have?

i just wanna UPHOLD my future into GOD' hands. and thats simple. Dont ask me why. I just sense that god wanna me to do sth.. but..i still cant figure out?