ytd workers meet, reached home around 12am+ hungry but no food..i was too tired to con't my work..my mind was keep thinking about 'bed' 'bed' 'bed'..so yea..went to sleep..but i still do A BIT BITBITBITBIT of work. :( and i wake up at 6am in the morning just to do my touch up for my basic entre draft which Ms ho wanna see it today. Dragged myself out of the bed, bath and start typing. not yet done! just managed to errh anyhow anyhow la..

BUT GUESSE what? Ms ho was on MC today. WOOO WOOO was kinda of happy,god really make a way for me..at least..i have more time to do a SOLID draft.today lesson only 2 hours? ZZZZ PHEW. school was kinda of interesting?

TODAY IS JASMINE BIRTHDAY! happy 19th BIRTHDAY!!!!
she shared with me her birthday wish..
1) Desire to draw closer with GOD
2) Personal revival
3) Relationships (ALL KINDS)
4) Some PERSONAL DESIRES

Really tks god for jasmine, i think god placed jasmine in my life for a purpose man. same class with me to remind me of projects deadlines and things to do. HAHA. i dont really go check OLE BABYBABY and vbus. so yea. Recently i started to open up my life to her, and i think its always good to share abt life and stuffs.

OKAY, seriosuly i need to finish up my APEL and my business plan by this FRIDAY! need to chiong. EH, yes! i still need to prepare 'teaching' for sam. TMR ATTraction mgt test, NEXt thur Resort Ops test..Coming up 15july accounting test.. hmmms. why tp like to give so many tests? Cleared two projects le. but still have two projects haven started at all. PLUS one individual project..not even started..everything need to be done by this end july.

i got to start TO DO planning for next month, i really dont like to do last min work so i always wanan to spread out my workload evenly.YEAH. KINDA of tired today, i fall asleep on the way home..BUT GOD IS SOO GOOD. he wake me up ON THE DOT WHERE the TRAIn DOOR OPENS @ bedok station. :D

OKAY. enough saying of my personal life. i think recently one thing that god spoke to me about is " dont seek self-confident but confident from god". reflected about it, i think i always like to seek confident from myself, eg "can i do it? can i really do it? if it can be done, i will do it. but if things dont work that way may be this and that". Apparently its like, doing it EXCELLENTLY when i have confident abt it. IF I CANT DO IT, i will start to think abt lots of "FACTORS" that stop me from doing it. BUT yet, god wanan me to draw strength and confident from him, For he is god of possibilities. And this is one area that i need to grow in.

Another area that i need to grow in is finding SECURITY in god. i always feel insecure at times, not always but sometimes. like..ehh ehh.."its weird", "how sia?" YA YA, im BHB, thick skin..but at times..im freaking scared, like-shepherd ask me to do this and that..OUTSIDE say okay, can sure..but INSIDE ME is "shit, im scared". although im scared, i will still do it. And everytime when i obey what god want me to do, thats where i have breakthroughs in my walk with god. And yes, true. its not abt how skilled we are, im not GOOD in expressing myself..im A EMO EMO TYPE. eh? DOnt Look like hur?

looking for that identiy that god had given to me- that purpose, that reason, that passion and that identiy keeps me going and growing cont'

okay, set a timeframe! by end june. i really wanna see myself to have breakthrus in the areas that i have mentioned above. WOO WOO WOO.
i know i can do it.


im not bob the builder. im the builder of kingdom of GOD.