okay. ytd 'Ess' was kinda of fun? yupx.
i enjoyed.phew, before the ess, i was really kinda of discourage cos i dont have any visitors! so i was really praying hard:| and just just before i reach bedok interchange, i received msg from jenny telling me to meet up a youth bro. eh hUh? the youth bro have a visitor from TP retail mgt year2..so yup..and since no visitors turned up for the mind cafe..i decided to join the youth svc and meet the visitor brought by the youth bro.

okay, youth svc was really DIFF from ter svc!! hmmms okay, after the svc ended..i went to find her..OH YEAH..HER name= SAM!!..YUP..invited her over to ESS!! and she agreed!! went for lunch..den ess..yup yup and bla bla bla..AND SHE CONVERTED.

err err errr. what i wanan make my point is..GOD is so amazing!! i mean its really GOD plan..it was like unexpected visitor??

okay clear my mind..now.. here is the challenge.
the challenging part.
ERRRRRRRR.. WHY ME?
i feel like im contridicting myself.
its VERY FUNNY

OKAY, YTD i went home, first thing first.. MY younger sister was scolded by my mum and my elder sister..why? cos i brought my sis to church and we returned home very late..and my mum+elder sister was like..saying all those bad things..AND MY MUM FORBIDE MY SIS TO GO CHURCH..cos she need to study...apparently..my mum was like blaming me.. AND ask me to teach my sister..and watch her studying..

HELLO. MY SCHOOL WORK, I ALD CANT HANDLE LE? and i ald have no nuts abt those secondary stuff..!! why dont ask my elder sister???my elder sister is SO SMART.. its VERY FUNNY!!! i really feel that my mum is bias...she told me..da jie and xiao mei not very good as in relationship..and i was like HUH? not very good??? what excuess is that? AND I TOLD HER I CANT HANDLE MY school WORK ALD AND I HAVE NO TIME...AND SHE TOLD ME.."IF YOU NO TIME..DEN DONT GO CHURCH"...ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

okay. expected opposion. i need to stand firm on my faith.

okay, right now..im "soon-to-be" shepherd. AND i was like..errr errr..i desire to be a shepherd..BUT right now..im like..can dont wan? CONTRIDICTING. i have rejected god 2 times for not taking in sheeps. okay, right now. i dont know what to do? jenny shepherd was like telling me "u will be taking care of sam, okay ah" den she run away. i was like.eh eh.. gosh. okAy. i expected it, i need to grow.

OKAY, apparently. i know my weakness. i know what i lack in. i lack of courage and i lack of faith in myself. i always always always tend to look at what i can do instead of looking at what god can do. rem rem rem GOD is god of possiblity..theres no such thing as god cannot do.

seriously, i need to believe in my strength..is this how far i can go in GOD kingdom? MY potential to do much more is just like that ONLY? seriously i have been asking myself these questions..

and yes. im getting out of my comfort zone. and by doing so. its the only choice i have to grow in maturity and my spiritual walk with god.

AMANDA. JIA YOU! YOU CAN DO IT.
okay. projects. exams. i hate it.