Today is my off day and apparently i wanted to finish my e-journal by today. i left with one paragraph. But i have the urge to blog because i reflected my life in beijing. argh. i did my e-journal which is somewhat a reflection as well. As u guys know i cant possibly throw my feelings in my e-journal because everyone could read it so thus i find it more appropriate to blog my feelings out.

i have been here for almost 2weeks.
i would not say its smooth sailing.
But i think i ponder a lot and think A LOT more then before.
Before i came over to china one of my objective is to ask GOD to give be a bigger burden for people.
And guess what? GOD really did. i really feel very burden for the people.

and my question to God is. Why things happen this way? and perhaps the model ans that everyone would told me oh its GOD plan, or GOD will etc. Sometimes its not abt the ans. i know i am a practical person. But i am really wondering.

I always tot that life could be fun yea?
but the people here doesnt think this way. there are so many considerations even when they want to spend their leisure time. i was caught by surprised when my mentor told me she had not watch movie before. i was like..WHAT? hur? that kinda of reaction. she said its too expensive..i cont to ask how abt doing some sports like jogging and its free! she said no..and what about gathering with friends..spending time with friends..and she said NO!..never before...how abt shopping? buying your clothes..she said no! and she ans me that she will wear whatever her mum bought for her..and eat whatever it is available.. - i really very shocked. how many will eat a meal that is super oily and salty??? they did. i couldnt tahan for the first day. i mean why is life like that? some suffer ..some burdened with money issues at such a young age..i'hv been thinking about it..praying abt it..

that day when my mentor injured her hand..as i helped her put the bandages she said she was touched because no one did that before..not even her mother..sometimes..its just kinda of sad to heard such story.

Many locals tot that they could row boat and come to singapore. they yearns to venture out of china~! BUT they couldnt. even applying for visa it will takes them at least one year. if u want it asap u need to have rank in the society and bride the officers. dont u guys think its sad? i think its very sad...so much restrictions.

But one thing i really admire is that..they live very simple. they are satisfied with whatever they have. they have the right attitudes in learning things and some are really humble pple.

okay. enough of my tots.

really thank god for bizart for preparing the entire devotions.
recently i learnt about the power of praising GOD! WOA! and today i learnt abt GOD timing. i think it just came in time..it says about crying to GOD and GOD deliverance. the eg that the book give is the example of israelities..when GOD make mosses leader to lead the israelities..when mosses told the padorah(forgt how to spell -.-) to free them ...he make the isrealities do DOUBLE work instead. and yet..it is in GOD plan..but ltr on GOD still delivered them. okay.long story.but what i wan to say is dont be too short sighted abt what it happening. sometimes when u pray..things get worst..and u lose your trust in GOD. but keep on praying and surely GOD will delivered. COS HE PROMISED! he said he promised that he will delivered. so lets look upon GOD promises!
amen!

i will be stronger.