IF u read my blog recently. i always says im tired.

But im really tired. EXHAUSTED! For the past one week, i can simply dozed off during lecture, during tut, while studying in the morning or at night, while waiting for bus, or even my jorney to school or home. Im really EXHASUTED, YET im trying my very best. I sort of 'forced' myself to drink coffee and red bull...if you really know me well...you know i HATE such stuff. but in order to keep myself awake.. i have no choice. BUT it seems that it doesnt work on me..I STILL SLEEP early like..1am? i tot i could at least hold on till 3am kinda.

OKAY! i want to say sorry if appear to be very sian or dao in school to you guys...i dont meant that..im too tired. EVERYDAY, i got to sort of make extra extra effort to wake up early to go school to use com because my COM SPOILT! HAIZ, things doesnt goes the way i want. But, enough of complains..i have ALOT of assignment to rush...BUT my com spoilt! timing is not right hur.

actually a lot of pple have been asking me what happen to me when they see me in school. they said i look tired.. AND YES I AM. EVEN my mum was like asking me..how come ur face so many pimples..and she said i always nv sleep early.

MON i was sick. went to work. MY manager ask me go home rest! gosh! shes super nice. exhausted.went home, my mum super nice, she cooked for me..and cooked barley water for me..i took med...and..i ..cont..to study.! HAHAHAHHA. sick and need to study...
its not i dont wan to rest..BUT if i rest for the day..I GOT to push myself harder for the weeks ahead.

i dont know how long can i hold on. pple says i dont understand them when it comes to school work. I DO. i couldnt even rem when is the last time when i really go out with my friends for shopping, or movie, or even watching TV.

IM TIRED! GOD KNOWS I AM. BUT i dont want to give up despite of mentally or physically lack....EVEN its tiring im always ready for CG, always ready for shepherding.. always ready for ministry...because it is thru prioritise his kingdom first and all things will fall in place. i know i need to be strong thru his grace. i know i cant fall down easily because of his people..i will be stronger.. and i will.

GOD HELP ME!