Finally, i have time to rest my butt on my chair and BLOG!


Gosh, its crazy man..for the past 3 days..


My bones hurt like hell..i think my muscles tear somehow.. sob..i can feel that pain when i press my knee..gosh. captain ball...when our team up against NP..im sort of like playing too serious le perhaps..i move my body too much.. man..i got to minimise unecessary movement for the next few days. even..when i go toliet..i feel super uncomfortable... SOB SOB


Today i was complaining to Mr.stupppidie about my school stuff..like..so many things to do ..this and that..projects la..tests la... im kinda of stress.. and stupiddie eileen still wanna stress me.. mug mug mug mug mug my pigu...hahahahh hahahah. well..FIrst in class award..goes to eileen :) thats what she's aiming for.. HAHA alright i admit, i was kinda of sad that i didnt get the DHL award.. my gpa..so kinda of close..like 0.01-0.04 close.. Hhahahah.. but does that DHL award really determines how pple see u as? yes it does..thats reality..but i cant be bother anymore..i just wanan live my life...simple..and free from worries... :D




Im really thank GOD for my good results last sem, i admit that last sem.. emotionally..im super duper unstable..i couldnt concentrate at all..YEAH.. but u see.. right, i admit my brain tend to turn very slow when it comes to debate or some "logical" questions..



amanda is full of crappps..but deep down i dont think im.. Im not thick skin..in fact..sometimes..i dont really have much confidence.. Sometimes i have great ideas..but i could'nt bring myself to share with pepole..i dont have much confidence to express myself and convince pple that my ideas is workable..esp during projects..i always tell jasmine my ideas..den she will tell me.."why not share with them(group)?" den i will say.."dont wanna, u share"... den she will say "its ur idea, i wont wanna snatch ur ideas".. : alright..

man...thats e problem with me..thats when i hate myself..the inability to do something i wanna..the inability to VOICE my thoughts..i tend to look upon my weakness..my inabilities..rather den relying on god to add uopn me!..yes this is my weakness..i dont mind telling pple that.


but im totally surprised by what ms.tan said ytd during attration mgt..she said this
"sometimes in ur life, its not about you can/or cannot do it, IT's AbOut U wanna Do iT Anot"
:) yeah.. kinda of encourage by that statement..i shall be more daring and step out of this comfort zone.

Today was a great fellowship with my classmate..GOsh.. "bang bang, who died?"..and etc..all those IQ games....eh..IQ games? i dont noe la..whatever it is.. GOsh..im kinda of slow in getting the trick behide it..ARHH.. DONT LAUGH.. stupiiiide..

OH YA! GOsh, GOD timing very ZHUN siaa. seriously..i always ask god.."god, what u wanna me to do for your people?" seriousely, im not a all rounded potential girl.. amanda is amanda..but..its so exciting..when i think about what god wnana you to do. And today i received a call from the "incharge" of the hope kids minstry..and he told me this ->

"hi amanda, bla bla (self-intro)..can you lead games this sunday for the kids..because the person could'nt make it, if you dont wanna to..its okay..or may be u wanna to observe for a few weeks? you will be leading the games with me..and there's a script which i will sent to you..you wanna try leading games?"

and i say.. "yes"

i said yes? i couldnt believe it..OMG.. god give me this opportunity..to showcase what i have to serve in this ministry... omg...but..but...what if i dont do it well?????..gosh..see see...i dont have much confidence in myself again.. Gosh..i shall pray for myself..in this area of my life. I shall overcome it..AND get out of it by this friday..i shall not stuck forever here..

Im pretty sure, amanda can do IT.
God is powerful, he can turn water into wine
I believe he can turn our weakness into strength :)
tata~